Matrescence

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Lyrics

Coffee’s cold — reheat it, beep
Pour it in — I’m still asleep
Walked in here — but what? but why?
I forgot — no need to cry
It’s the… um… the thing… you know?
Need the word — my brain is slow
On the stove — forgotten meals
In my eyes — the ceiling reels

And they say — it’s carelessness
And they say — she took a dive
But inside — it’s sleeplessness
Here I am — I’m still alive

Once I ran it all — before
In their eyes — the closing door
“Hormones, honey. It will pass.”
Like I’m fading into glass
“You have changed” — they all agree
I’d just like to feel like me
All around: “You’ve got this, girl”
As if I were no one’s world

And they say — it’s carelessness
And they say — she took a dive
But inside — it’s sleeplessness
Here I am — I’m still alive

I’m not broken — just not all there
Let me breathe, a voice of my own
Not “what happened” — say that you care
Not “you’ve got this” — “you’re not alone”

And they say — it’s carelessness
And they say — she took a dive
But inside — it’s sleeplessness
Here I am — I’m still alive

…Still alive

Credits

Composer

Kara Si Ha

Lyricist

Kara Si Ha

℗ 2026 Kara Si Ha